Deep Love Hard to Continue
Chapter 1
On my way to a prenatal check–up, I got into
a freakin‘ car accident.
But Mark wanted to be with his soulmate on
her birthday.
He didn’t answer my call, and he didn’t show
up at the hospital.
When I woke up, he was all over me,
apologizing. “Oh, baby, I am so sorry, Lily. I
was in a meeting all day, I swear! I’ll make it
up to you and the baby, I promise.”
Tears welled up as I looked at him. “Oh,
really? How about a beach house for after the
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baby is born?”
Without even hesitating, Mark signed the
contract.
What he didn’t know was that our baby was
already gone, because of the wreck.
And the contract he was so quick to sign?
A goddamn divorce agreement.
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“Are you sure about this, Lily?”
My bestie, Sarah, handed me the divorce.
papers.
I’d just had a D&C.
My body was screaming in pain.
But the ache in my heart.
Was definitely worse.
“I’m sure.”
When Mark blew off my prenatal appointment
to go party with his old girlfriend, I knew I had
to do something.
When I was lying there bleeding after the
crash, calling him over and over, and all I got
was his girlfriend saying he was in the
shower.
I knew I was done.
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Sarah was about to say something else.
Then a frantic voice busted in from the
doorway.
“How’s my wife?”
Mark barged in.
He rushed to my side, grabbing my hand,
looking me up and down with this concerned
look on his face.
“Lily, are you okay? What happened?”
Then he turned to Sarah.
“Sarah, what’s the deal? Is she badly hurt?”
Sarah’s an OB/GYN at this hospital.
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She was in surgery when I was brought in.
Seeing the mess I was in, she’d tried calling
Mark like fifty times, but all she got was that
he was in the shower.
Otherwise, she wouldn’t have printed out
those divorce papers for me.
“Lily hit her head pretty hard, lost a lot of
blood, some scrapes on her legs, but
thankfully…”
Sarah glanced at me. “…the baby’s fine.”
Mark sighed with relief.
He pulled me into a hug, all tender and
worried.
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“I’m so sorry, Lily. I was stuck in a meeting,
had my phone on silent, that’s why I didn’t
answer.”
Sarah rolled her eyes and left the room.
And me?
I just had to swallow the sadness and the pain
and play along.
“Honey, I know you’ve been super busy lately,
but I had my appointment today.”
“I know, and I screwed up. I’m sorry… I’ll
make it up to you.”
He kissed the top of my head.
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“What do you want? Anything you want, I’ll
get it.”
“I’ve already thought about it.”
I handed him the papers I’d prepped.
Tears in my eyes, I said, “I want a beach
house. You know, for after the baby’s born.”
“That’s it?”
Mark laughed, agreeing without even thinking.
I gently stopped him from flipping through the
pages.
I opened the signature page for him.
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He grabbed the pen.
Then, boom! Signed his name without a
second thought.
I felt a little relief as I stashed the papers
away.
He patted my head.
“Anything else? Just name it, it’s yours.”
I shook my head, smiling weakly.
I didn’t want him, so I definitely didn’t need
anything else.
Up until recently, Mark had always been great
to me.
Especially after I got pregnant.
He’d been so thoughtful, so attentive.
He’d treated me like he wanted to protect me.
But ever since his ex–girlfriend, Ashley, came
back into the picture a month ago.
Mark had quietly changed.
He loves me, but still loves the woman he
supports in the other house he owns.
The time he spent with me was gradually
replaced by “work.”
He even completely forgot about my
appointment.
“Let me hear the baby. I wonder if he was
scared by the accident.”
Mark checked my injuries.
Then he leaned down and pressed his cheek
against my stomach.
“Hey, little guy, you and Mom need to be
okay, no accidents, okay?”
My nose started to burn.
A month ago, I probably would’ve cried with
happiness.
But today, it just made me want to cry from
how sad it was.
The feeling of being lied to.
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It’s too hard.
“Honey, do you really want this baby?”
“Of course.”
Mark kissed my stomach.
“He’s our baby, who else would I love?”
But the baby was already gone.
I don’t even know if Mark will be upset.
It was the weekend, but Mark claimed he had
to work and left early.
I drove myself to the hospital for my
appointment.
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While waiting for the light to turn green, a
semi–truck t–boned me. The car flipped, and I
was pinned on the ground, doubled over in
pain.
The doctors said I was brought in too late.
I thought to myself:
If Mark had been there to take me, I might
have avoided that car crash.
Even if I didn’t.
I wouldn’t have lost the baby.
“Lily, what’s wrong? Why would you ask
that?”
Mark looked at me.
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His eyes, always so open and honest.
Were filled with lies.
As I struggled to answer, his phone buzzed in
his pocket.
I caught a glimpse of the familiar number.
For the last month.
That number had been popping up on Mark’s
phone at all hours.
Mark’s eyes flickered nervously.
Then he turned to me, all soft and sweet.
“Honey, I gotta take this call. You just rest,
okay?”
“Okay.”
I nodded, trying to act normal.
Mark took the call and stepped out of the
room.
Before the door closed, I heard him lower his
voice.
“Don’t call me here. Lily’s hurt and in the
hospital.”
“I don’t care! You hurt me last night too!”
His ex whined into the phone.
Five minutes later.
Mark came back, holding my hand, all
apologetic. “Honey, something came up at
work. I gotta go deal with it. I’ll be back in an
hour, okay?”
